STAR WANDERINGS

Some time ago, I asked my son how he would describe me: "You like to do things your way and you're wild," he said. I was stunned, as this is not the way I see myself in public. I usually let out my Leo side in private where it's safe. People who don’t know me have no idea about my wild side. No wonder. It’s tucked away in a dark closet of my 12th house, a place of loss, suffering, and self-sabotage. And isolation, fear, and all that good stuff…   I’ve always loved this fiery part of me. This wild, all-consuming energy that rushes through my body. I feared it at the same time. I’ve always craved to be seen and appreciated, but when I got the attention, I didn’t know what to do with it.    Confidence is often stereotypically tied with Leo archetype, but from my experience, Leo part of our charts (everyone has Leo house in their chart) is often a place of shame and guilt. It is a place where we hold lots of fear and where we need to grow our confidence.   Leo energy is ...

  On April 27, 2025, we are facing the third and final opposition of Mars and Pluto at 3° of Leo and Aquarius.  When Mars and Pluto are engaged in a harsh aspect of opposition, it is like a face-off where two power players are trying to gain control. Imagine two boxers before their showdown in the ring. They're stating their position by hurling insults and threatening each other.  ​ There is no room for pause. There is no room to catch a breath. You have to pay attention at all times otherwise your opponent takes advantage of the situation. Opposition is a push-pull relationship.  Opposition is about tension that can't be reconciled.  Opposition of Mars and Pluto brings urgency to our actions. When Mars and Pluto are involved in a tense aspect, it often feels like a survival mode – DO or DIE. Imagine unbearable pressure. It feels crushing like it's going to break you. At that moment, your instinct either kicks in and you’re going to fight for your life or you re...

“I can't go on, I'll go on.” I find this S. Beckett’s quote a perfectly fitting introduction for the ongoing Mars retrograde process. „I can’t but I will.“ We can sense heaviness in those words that is unbearable yet, there is determination, a choice not to give up, to keep going. Mars is always working within the sphere of discomfort where conflict and challenge are present. Mars won’t give us anything for free. We need to fight for it. We need to put a little bit of „blood, sweat, and tears“ into the process. Mars is a great ally when we find ourselves in difficult life circumstances where we need to show courage and perseverance. Mars is about what we desire in life. We need to show up over and over again and burn for what we want. Mars is about a choice. We need to sacrifice to achieve what we desire. Mars Retrograde periods are about comebacks, breakdowns, and reconstructions. During the Mars retrograde periods, we are put to the test.  Mars retrogrades are intense periods...

Leo and Scorpio. It feels like they couldn’t be more different. Whenever we think about things being in a difficult relationship, astrologically, these two are in square aspect, we assume that all they can do is just escalate the conflict and further worsen whatever issue they‘re both involved in. Is it the only way we can think about these two?   Leo and Scorpio are both solid signs expressing most intensely the nature of the season they represent. Whenever these two come together, we´re dealing with light and dark dynamics, we’re dealing with contrasting themes of what’s visible versus what’s hidden. They have no exaltation ruler which, in my opinion, grants them with further notion of sovereignty over the area they rule. They are places of concentrated power. They are about dominance and authenticity though their expression are quite different. They are both bestial signs represented by 4 footed animals – a Lion and a Scorpion. They are both deadly. But even the most lethal beas...

Venus is now preparing for her magical "40 days and 40 nights" backward journey through our sky. The number forty has had great symbolic meaning in Jewish, Christian, Islamic, and other Middle Eastern traditions. Forty is often used to designate important time periods. In Hebrew Bible, rain fell for "forty days and forty nights" during the flood. The Hebrew people lived in the lands outside of the promised land for "forty years". Moses stays on Mount Sinai for 40 days and nights receiving the law. Jesus fasted "forty days and forty nights" in the Judean desert being tempted by Devil. Forty days was the period from the resurrection to the ascension of Jesus. These are just a few examples of the cultural and religious significance of the number 40. What symbolism of 40 in all these stories points to, is the period of preparation, trial and testing that precedes a triumph, a new beginning. Some scholars believe the number 40 was originally sacred to...

That feeling when your favorite song comes on - you feel like smiling, your body is flooded with good feelings and all of a sudden the world is a happy place. If you´re like me, you won´t be able to stand still no matter where you are :-). Dancing is the only time when I´m not afraid to take the space even if no one else is dancing and I always take my shoes off no matter how formal the occasion is. I just don't care - this is my space, my time, my rules. You can join me or you can stay on the sidelines. Dancing is my wild side. It has not always been that way. All it took was just one little comment during my teen years. Since that moment, I was always trying to consciously control „how I look“ when dancing. The change came when I started to go to intuitive dance sessions. The instruction was „Get in touch with your body, do whatever the hell you feel like doing – dance, sit, lie down, sing, scream“. During these sessions, I´ve experienced the greatest sense of freedom, pure expre...

  Venus has entered a fiery, masculine temple of the Sun King. As the Sun, she is rising, embodying the diurnal quality of the Sun, tending the eternal fire.  In ancient astrology, the Sun is rejoicing in the 9th house, the house of God. The Sun represents immortal light, the divine principle, the connection with that which transcends our material reality. Sun was also called the noetic light, that which illuminates (us). Illumination comes from the Latin root illuminationem - "to throw into light, make bright, light up". Sun King brings us both intellectual and spiritual enlightenment. The element of fire, being closest to the Spirit, carries an innate need to express the eternal light, to create. Upon entering the King´s temple, Venus is becoming a radiant vessel of the heavens. Venus might be witnessed in the sweetness of devotion, the adornment of sacred places and in tending the altars. Christian art of manuscript illumination represents a sacred merging of Sun and Venus...

I need to write about things that speak to my heart. I can´t just produce stuff when the transit comes around. I don´t want to feel like “another one”, like I am „losing my soul“.  I didn´t feel like I have anything to say about New Moon in Leo but funnily enough, I got around to it somehow. My journeys are not very straightforward. Leo is my 12th house, it is the place where I often get lost and found. It is my hideaway when I feel insecure when my nervous system seems too fragile to function within the visible space. The Twelfth House is a sanctuary where I´m finding my comfort.  But sometimes even a loner gets lonely. The 12th place is where Saturn finds its joy after all. I often stay a lot longer in the shade than it is healthy but this place just feels so familiar despite its darkness. A couple of days ago, I was reading to my boys about children who get trapped in a heavy snowstorm. The reality of the situation feels very real and intense to them but at the same time, t...

  On weekdays, I get up at 5 am. I thrive on routine and love having quiet morning moments all for myself.  A few days ago I woke up and something was off. The darkness has started to creep in.  I thought to myself: „This can´t be, it´s mid July and the summer has just begun“. I am aware that since the summer Solstice, the light is being cut in the evenings but mornings are a different story. For a while now, I´ve been used to waking up to sunlight, feeling joyful,  eager to start my day. There was an aching realization that the change is underway, that the darkness is on the rise, that the summer is slipping through my fingers.  While studying astrology with Nightlight Astrology, we´ve been learning about the light and dark interplay within the zodiacal year and it felt a bit abstract for me at the time. Feeling this physically in my environment, in my body, made all the difference.  The ingress of the Sun into the sign of Cancer, the moment of Summer Sols...