STAR WANDERINGS

  Walking behind a teenage girl in hot pink pants and white stilettos this morning, I was thinking about how necessary it is to walk in those stilettos before we’re ready. I remembered times when I „was walking in those stilettos“, feeling really clumsy as I „wasn´t there yet“. I wasn´t ready for the attention but had to do it anyway as the urge to stand out was stronger.  If we want to reach new heights, it is necessary to challenge ourselves, explore uncomfortable spaces and feel awkward before we learn how to walk gracefully.   All planets are moving in direct motion now. Jupiter is covering the new ground of Aries accompanied by fiery Venus. There is a lot of masculine, forward-moving energy in the air. We are aware that things are about to change significantly. Anticipation is rising.  We might feel like standing on the launch pad, engines have been ignited and we are waiting for our first blastoff. We might not have a clear picture yet of what´s coming, what ex...

  I love (Venus in) Pisces season. I haven’t always felt that way. Before I was familiar with astrological symbolism, this time of year seemed kind of weird and confusing. I had a kind of blah feeling about it.  It’s neither this nor that, the mutable nature of this time between winter and spring drove me crazy. I wanted to escape the vagueness of it all. I felt the pull, the expectation, the rising energy, the light that is coming but then came another gust of cold air or a sudden snow storm. All my dreams of springs have vanished and with it came disillusion and despair.t. Pisces season. Winter is still here and spring is just around the corner. There is a lightness floating in the air, it shimmers and moves us to imaginative spaces where everything is possible. Yet, at the same time, we are painfully aware that Pisces season is the  “Spring that never comes”. It is a period of transition and the boundaries are porous. Everything gets easily infiltered. Water does not p...

  We often see Saturn as a hard cold reality, difficult decisions we have to make, elements of our lives that are clear-cut. Our western culture celebrates the Saturnian illusion of realism, matter-of-factness, firm predictable structures that keep a firm grip on chaos… That’s not all there is to Saturn. Saturn stands in the opposition to the Sun, the unifying principle. Saturn rules over the opposition, it is of dual nature, it has two faces. As the gatekeeper between the visible and invisible world, it has a foot in both worlds, the material world of Fortune that we inhabit, the reality we can grasp and explore with our senses.  But Saturn has also access to the invisible world of Spirit, the part of the reality that is elusive, that we can’t put our finger on, that escapes any attempt to be clearly defined, described and categorized. Saturn fills the transitional, in-between spaces, the grey areas outside of clearly defined categories. Mysticism, nebulousness, dissolution, ...

  When I think about kids, I think about the Moon and Jupiter and the Moon's domicile of Cancer where Jupiter is exalted. Babies are attached to their mothers, seeking unity and fearing  separation. The body is at the center of their being. Babies take pleasure in exploring their bodies. They want to be touched, held and rocked, they want to be nurtured and secured within their mother's universe. Their days are primarily occupied by repeating periods of sleeping, feeding and diaper changing.  They follow their instincts, they want to have their basic needs met and if they aren't, they will ask for it right away. As they're getting older, they are learning how to control their primal, instinctual reactions, how to be social but still they have a strong lunar presence. They are soft creatures, full of water and emotions that are flowing through their little bodies like wild rivers.  Kids are deeply rooted in the present moment, in a kind of timeless reality. Their expe...

Venus is all about comfort, ease, harmony, living an enjoyable life. So Venus in her domicile or otherwise well placed in a chart can sometimes come with a princess attitude. Recent reading made me think about the benefics' inhabiting nature, about goodness we take for granted and about an assumption that we are somehow entitled to always have certain privileges. I remember the beginning of my astrological training with Nightlight Astrology when I analyzed my chart full of planets in detriment, fall, tight squares and overall strong malefic signature. I admit I felt anxious and sorry for myself. I remember my teacher saying that people with challenging placements have often really interesting life stories and have the ability to turn their life around. I wasn’t convinced. Two years have passed since then and my view of what’s beneficial/malefic has developed quite a bit. I know that our lives reflected by astrological chart are not black and white, there is a great deal of grey in ...

I thought I can, somehow, avoid the messiness of human interaction.  I assumed if I control the circumstances and guard what is precious to me,  I can somehow outwit the universe.  At one point in my life, I consciously decided to stop crying to get myself out of a difficult experience. It took me a few years to be able to welcome tears in my life again, to start melting this hard rocky mountain inside of myself, slowly loosening the cold controlling grip on my heart. Vulnerability is what makes us human. One way or the other we will get hurt. Naturally, we long for wholesome experiences that will nourish and support us. To separate the wheat from the chaff, we need to engage in the whole spectrum of experience, taste all the fruits we receive as a result of our actions. Sometimes the fruit is too ripe, past its prime, slowly disintegrating, yet by tasting it we are learning an important lesson. We are learning what does not feel good, what we don´t want to taste anymore....

  We can only do so much - research, rationalize, organize, prioritize in an attempt to cover all possible scenarios, to avoid failure but at some point this endeavor becomes pointless. We come to a point when there is no more we can do. We need to hand our dream to the Universe and say “I gave it my everything, I did my best, it is not in my power to decide the outcome of this, I am handing this over to the higher power - I TRUST, I have FAITH, I BELIEVE. Constant doubt is the harbinger of growth, prosperity, of wisdom gained over time. Reason and belief, doubt and trust - eternal tension of Mercury and Jupiter. Mars in Gemini has been tripping backward in its retrograde motion for a while, shapeshifting through Mercury’s territory and setting multiplicity as the current operating mode. You better be ready to act on things when they come up. It is what it is, this is a problem- solving time. Things take twice as much time to figure out and more often then not you’ll have to get ba...